Tuesday, November 25, 2008

Believe

Love this song by Josh Groban...


I heard it last night on the radio on the way home from work... and it got me thinking (besides giving me the chills..in good way). It is part if the movie The Polar Express, which of course is about simply believing in Santa and the magic of the season.

But isn't it in a way about a simple belief in God? Listening to the words... it just touches me in a way that is more spiritual, the reason what the Advent and Christmas season really is for... celebrating the birth of Jesus.

Here are the lyrics:

Children, sleeping.
Snow is softly falling.
Dreams are calling,
Like bells in the distance.
We were dreamers,
Not so long ago.
But one by one, we
All had to grow up.

When it seems the magic slipped away...
We find it all again on Christmas Day.

Believe in what your heart is saying,
Hear the melody that's playing.
There's no time to waste,
There so much to celebrate.
Believe in what you feel inside,
Give your dreams the wings to fly.
You have everything you need, if you just believe.

Trains move quickly
To their journey's end.
Destinations...
Are where we begin again.
Ships go sailing,
Far across the sea.
Trusting starlight,
To get where they need to be.

When it seems that we have lost our way...
We find ourselves again on Christmas Day.

Believe in what your heart is saying,
Hear the melody that's playing
There's no time to waste,
There so much to celebrate.
Believe in what you feel inside,
And give your dreams the wings to fly.
You have everything you need, if you just Believe.

If you just believe.
If you just believe.

I love the line "Destinations...are where we begin again." To me that symbolizes being saved...placing your absolute trust in God to lead you where you need to be. And of course this line "You have everything you need, if you just Believe."

Isn't that the truth.....

Monday, November 10, 2008

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Happy Thanksmasween!

Or should I say Merry Hallochrisgiving??

I have been thinking about this quite a bit lately.... really any time I have gone into a store since before Halloween. It boggles my mind that holidays and seasons just seem to run into each other more and more, especially this time of year. Do retail stores actually get that much more money by putting their Christmas stuff out so early? I have a hard time believing that. And what's the purpose of playing Christmas music on the radio before Thanksgiving has even come and gone.....

I love Christmas music, I really do. It's my favorite...and within the next few weeks the choir and bells at church will start looking at pieces and I will be starting to figure out what I want to do for a solo for Christmas Eve and will start practicing. But I avoid the local radio station that is already playing it o the radio....cause that will just serve to burn me out.

I love the season (both the religious and secular parts of it)..... can't wait for Christmas to come... (though I do have a lot of work to do and need to get to it....)...and I am looking forward to hearing all the wonderful music once Advent has started.

Before though....no thanks. Count me out. Even if I would be considered a scrooge to think so. Bah Humbug....

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Kindergarten!

T Girl,

You are such a big girl! Today you finished your second day of kindergarten. :) It does not seem like it has been five years since we brought you home from the hospital. It has been a wonderful and fun (and sometimes frustrating) five years....

I am really looking forward to watching you continue to learn and grow and to be able to show everyone just how smart you are! I am hoping that you stay on track and I am trying to put everything in place so that you can succeed. You know by now that I worry about you, I have the confidence in you but sometimes I worry that your speech issues may get in the way and give people a wrong opinion of you....

But next week you get to go to U of M and see Rebecca again, and mommy has a meeting next Friday with Ms. Leavitt who is going to be your speech teacher. And mommy really likes your teacher, and I am glad that you seem to like her too. :)

Hopefully now you can blossom and grow (maybe it will help a little with your shyness????). I love you so much honey...you will always be mine and daddy's baby girl no matter how big you get.

Love,
Mommy

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Big Boy Bed

My Little Man,

I took the plunge today and took the side off your crib. I had actually been thinking about it for some time since you are getting to be so independent. Thankfully you have not ever pushed the issue by climbing out of the crib on your own. But as of today, you can now get in and out of your be like a big boy. I am taking a chance, since you ordinarily do not sleep all night, let alone in your bed.

But, maybe this will be different (I hope). You are growing up day by day and while it is sad sometimes to me to see my baby boy get so big, I rejoice in every way when I see you master each new thing.

Daddy wisely gave you back your pacifier (even though you didn't use it camping all weekend with Nana & Papa). As tired as you were tonight, we didn't want to push too much change on you all at once. So from now on, till you get used to your bed, you can have your "paci" in bed at night only.

You'll do great, you are so independent and I know you will master this new phase in your life. :)

I love you buddy. Sweet dreams.

Old Blue Chair

Had a conversation in the car last night when out for our 7th anniversay with Jim about Kenny Chesney's song Old Blue Chair. I found out some information that I really didn't know about him and his faith and I am in awe and in love all over again.

Here are the lyrics to the song:

There's a blue rockin' chair,
sittin' in the sand.
Weathered by the storms,
and well oiled hands.
It sways back and forth,
with the help of the winds.
Seems to always be there,
like an ol' trusted friend.

I've read a lot of books, wrote a few songs.
Looked at my life, where it's goin', where it's gone.
I've seen the world, through a bus windshield.
But nothing compares,
to the way that I see it,
to the way that I see it,
to the way that I see it,
when I sit in that Old Blue Chair.

From that chair I've caught
a few fish and some rays,
and I've watched boats sail,
in and out of Cinnamon Bay.
I let go of a lover,
that took a piece of my heart.
Prayed many times for forgiveness,
and a brand new start.

I've read a lot of books, wrote a few songs.
Looked at my life, where it's goin', where it's gone.
I've seen the world, through a bus windshield.
But nothing compares,
to the way that I see it,
to the way that I see it,
to the way that I see it,
when I sit in that Old Blue Chair.

That chair was my bed one New Year's night,
when I passed out from too much Malibu and diet,
and I woke up to a hundred mosquito bites. I swear.
Got 'em all sittin' right there, in the Old Blue Chair.

There's a blue rockin' chair,
sittin' in the sand.
Weathered by the storms,
and well oiled hands.

His "old blue chair" he told me is his hunting stand. He is able to utterly and totally relax, kind of a meditation of sorts, and he said that he prays more there than anywhere else. I have to admit that I was actually shocked. I know that Jim loves hunting, but never really thought that he would also use his time in the woods in such a profound manner while he is waiting and watching for deer.

Then in his silly way he started making up his own lyrics to the song and actually said that he was going to write them down. I hope he does, so I can write them here and compare the two. :) Each day I love him more and more.....

I really need and want an "old blue chair"...but I don't think that it is something that you can really seek out...I think that something that special and profound should just happen. I have been floundering in my faith for some time and honestly have just come to realize just how much. It was a rough spring for the family, and though things are better in some respects...we are struggling in others. And so I have been struggling within myself. It's hard to just let go and let God.

And so here I ask, though I know that He never left me, for the Lord to come back into my life, watch over me and mine and to guide us in His way. Amen.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

Some Lab Results...

Okay, so some of Jay's results are back from the lab and it's got me worried....

The DNA screen for Celiac is not back yet, that one takes about 10 days...I won't be able to get that one until next week.

But he is anemic again (sigh). His iron level is at 28, and his saturation is low. Which I guess is normal when your iron levels are low. We've been through the low iron before, he was on an iron supplement for a while..it was doable although it's nasty smelling stuff....even stained our carpet green.

I am worried about the fact that his red blood cells are low. 3.88 and normal is 4. I wonder what that means? I am tempted to search the web but am afraid that it will just scare me.....I know I will post on my mommy boards for sure. I know, it doesn't seem very low at all when you know 4 is normal...but I worry about the whole picture.

What if this whole celiac thing is way off? If not celiac and not an allergy, what is going on with his poor little body? How sick could he really be when he basically looks like a healthy, happy little boy? Ugh.

I'm starting to be scared. Just a little, but scared nonetheless.....